একজন মাগীর আত্নজীবনি

একজন মাগীর আত্নজীবনি

Ami ekjon prostitute. ami jei parai thaki, eikane onek guli magi-khana ache…vodro manushra amader para k bole “kharaap para”..othocho ei vodro manushguli jokon amader kache ase, bujhate parbo na koto ovodro hoi….ami jei bari te thaki, amar moto aro 18 jon meye thake…sobar boyos e 13-25 er moddhe. Amra ja rojgar kori tar 50% masi k diye dite hoi…amader somoy boro odvut kate…amra diner bela onek bela porjonto ghumai karon sara raat shorir er upor diye onek ottachar jai….amader common ekta room ache jeikhane sarakkon blue film cholte thake, na hole amra notun notun technique shikbo kothai? Amader pete baccha ele beshir vag somoy ta fele dewa hoi…nijerai ekta jahannam e thaki, baccha koi rakhbo?

Ekhon ami apnader bolbo kivabe ami “magi” holam?

Magi khanai amar ek fupu amake beche dei…fupur sathe bari theke rowan diyechilam Dhaka shohor jabo bole, jaiga holo magi parai….ami tokhon 13 botsor er balika….fupu bollo, ektu bosh ami astesi…bolei fupu beriye gelo..ektu pore k mota-sota mohila room e ese dhuklo…amake bollo, naam ki tor? Bollam, moumita. Se bollo, moumita tor mashik suru hoise? Ami lojjai much lal kore aste kore matha narlam, j ha suru hoise. Se bollo, orna fel to buk theke….ami obak hoye gelam! Orna felte hobe keno buk theke? Mohilar sathe 22/23 botsor er arekta meye chilo, se nijei ese amar orna sorai dilo…amar buk tokhon matro fule uthche, chotto duita apple er moto size….mohila bollo, jei size ase
cholbe, kalke thekei kaje namte parbe…ami kichui bujhlam na ki bolche mohila…tar por amar upor onek kaj korlo tara..amar chul sundor kore kete dilo ekjon mohila, gusul korte bollo, ghagra-cholir moto ekta jamao dilo porte….ei jama ta khub odvut chilo, niche petikot er moto, upore ekta chotto blose jar pith pura khola….kono orna nai, ami khub lajja pacchilam….r jama ved kore amar dud her bota guli jeno khariye ache…amake sundor kore sajalo….ami onekkhon jigassa korlam, fupu koi? Tara khali bole ashbe ektu por…..raate vaat khelam pet pure…amikhub khushi chilam notun jama peye, etto sundor kore sajte pere…gorib er ghor er meye ami eto kichu koi petam!

Rate ghum er jonno tara amake ekta jhol-mole room e niye ashlo…bishal ekta bichana….ghum e amar chokh venge aschilo, ami bichanar ek konai giye shuwe porlam……

Ghum vanglo khub ucha kichu kothai…mone holo onekmanush jeno amar ashe-pashe kotha bolche…pit pit kore chokh khullam..koto raat hoyeche jani na, dekhi room e sei mota mohila, 2/3 ta meye (tara sobai khub sundor kore saju-guju kora) r ekta 40 er moto boyos purush….purush ta k dekhe ami lojja peye gelam….amar porone emon ekta jama, ja amar lojja aro bariye dilo….ami khatei uthe bose amar dui haat ara-ari vabe buker upor rekhe ektu ga dhakar cheshta korte laglam….tara ki niye kotha bolchilo ami kichui bujhte parchilam na, khali jei kotha guli bolchilo ta kane aschilo…

Khala bolchilo, “kochi mal….karo haat lage nai, apni e prothom…dekhen valo kore…emon mal roj roj pawa jai na..apnar kopal….beshi taka disen thiki toi loss nai……laganor somoy kintuk condom poira loiyen, kochi shorir pet bandhai felle baccha felte jhamela hoibo” ei sob bole mashi r sob guli meye room theke ber hoye gelo….lok ta  o pder pichone pichone ber hote giye last e na beriye room er dorjai shitki lagate laglo….ami tara-tari uthe daralam berubar jonno…..lokta amar haat khop kore dhore fello…

Ami voi e kepe uthlam, ami andaa korte parchilam etokkhon tara ki niye kotha bolchilo….amar fupu ki tahole amake kharaap parai diye gese? Chokh fete amar kanna ashte laglo….ami lok tar paye jorie dhorlam, bollama make chere din amar amar mayer kache jabo…

Lokta amake dara koriye hashte laglo…bollo, mayer kache keno sona? Dekho na ami tomake mayer chaiteo onek beshi ador korbo…bole se amake kole tule niye bichanar dike hathte laglo…ami chitkar kore kadte laglam r chutar jonno chot-fot korte laglam…loktar shorir e jeno oshur er moto shokti, se bichanai amake shuiye diye amar upor shuwe porlo….ami pa diye take ekta dhakka dilam..raage se amar gale eto jore ekta thappor marlo, ami bathai norte parchilam na..bollo, chup chodna magi, onek taka disi tor gud marar jonno, ekhont ui nokhra korosh na?

Loktar botyos 40/45 hobe, mod kheye asche bujhai jacchilo, se hush e chilo na…..shokto vari shorir, kono truck driver categorir keu hobe….mukh vorti khocha khocha kacha-paka dari……se amar blouse er upor diye amar buk kamre dhorte laglo….ami ki korbo kicchu bujhte parchilam na…chokh diye pani fela chara hoito r kichu korar o chilo na……arekta haat se amar petikot er vitore e dhukai diye amr ran haatate laglo…..onno haate se amar blose er butam khule fello…amar buk tokohon pura udam…..se chokra-kare amar nipple er char pashe jibba bulate laglo…..onno haat ta aste aste amar gud sporsho korlo….ei prothom ami ektu kepe uthlam…keno jani na…..ekta haat diye se amar arekta dudh eto jore dolai molai korche ami bathai kakiye uthlam…..lokta jeno poshu hoye giyechilo…ami bathai kakiye uthtei se amar onno duduhe data bosiye ekta kamor dilo……ami fupiye fupiye kadte laglam….tar onno haat ta tokhkon amar gud er vitor dhukhche r ber hocche….ektu por se amar petikot o khule fello…ami 13 botsor er ekta meye ekhon ei adh-bura lok er kache pura legta hoye shuwe achi…amar legta shorir dekhe jeno tar kamona aro bere gelo……amar sara shorir se chuste laglo r kamrate laglo……aste aste amar shorir o jaga shuru korchilo…ami bujhte parchilam amar gud vije uthce